Good news finally :)

Tomorrow I am signing the contract for my new job! Made it! In August I start as Web editor in public service, in a regional unit with 4000 employees. I am very lucky, and very happy and thankful!

The situation at work and all we have had to go through these last months have take so much of my attention, all day and night, and now I can relax a bit. Feels good!



Happy! Dancing! Singing!

I guess my popularity in the office is rapidly dropping. I lost my great big office, which I shared with another person, because on of the bosses needed all the space, (perhaps to store his ego…). So we had to move to an open landscape solution thing. I got to keep my desk, which I can raise and lower, and I usually stand quite much during the day.

And since there are quite a bit of noise, I listen to music! And dance.

And sometimes I forget about where I am, and sing. Oooops!


Sometimes I sense people looking at me, and wonder how long they have been standing there. Then I just laugh. They should try dancing a bit too, maybe they’ll fell better.

It shouldn’t really be like this now. I might loose my job, several hundred will, in my company. This is a stressing situation, for all, me too.

We never think about the decision we take to be sad, mad, angry, we just get into that mood. Did you know you can decide this yourself? I decide to be happy. The things I cannot change can be left somewhere else.

I might as well dance. And sing. I have this one in my head, from Pharrell Williams.

Here come bad news talking this and that, yeah,
Well, give me all you got, and don’t hold back, yeah,
Well, I should probably warn you I’ll be just fine, yeah,
No offense to you, don’t waste your time
Here’s why
Because I’m happy
Clap along if you feel like a room without a roof
Because I’m happy
Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth
Because I’m happy
Clap along if you know what happiness is to you
Because I’m happy
Clap along if you feel like that’s what you wanna do

Keeping on being happy

New Year Fireworks, Athens

New Year Fireworks, Athens (Photo credit: RobW_)

I am basically happy. I used to be:

  • sad
  • unmotivated
  • stressed out
  • desperate
  • impatient
  • worried

Those feelings used to own me. It is not like that anymore. I don’t go around all day with a big smile or anything, well, maybe some days. 🙂 And I feel good and calm. What used to cause real anxiety, worry, and upset me, doesn’t make me drill down into chaos anymore. I am more like “oh well, how do I solve this?”

If you have followed my blog from the beginning, you’d know I was quite intense and energetic. I posted almost every day, and I had a lot to say. I never really planned it, but writing turned out to be my breakthrough. Writing about all those bad things, made the symptoms disappear. It was probably not the only thing happening. I am not sure. At one point I felt finished. My deep dive into bad emotions and even worse memories was done.

I have been ok since then. Almost all the time.

I am very grateful that this happened.

I started thinking about next year today. What hopes I have, what I wish for to happen. I think I will put together some new years resolutions, not like the usual ones, but some thoughts on how to grow. How to reach my goals. How to continue having control and be at peace.

Thanks for reading everyone! 🙂

Happy :)

smiley face stickers

smiley face stickers (Photo credit: South Carolina’s Northern Kingdom)

And I hope you are too!

Things seem to be going our way, my daughter is improving all the time, and I am pretty sure that the procedure is a success this time. We can’t be sure until after six months, but things are already looking good. I am back to work, a bit confused still, and far too busy. But that is part of everyday life, my everyday life anyway. However, I hope I have my concentration back soon.

This has been a strange time, waiting for so long. We have both just set aside everything else, and now it is a great relief that she is ok. Reality has already hit, she is finished at hospital and the rest of LIFE waits. When you get so deep into one such thing, the rest of the world just disappears. Now it has reappeared, with all the possibilities, choices and perspective. Good, but also a bit overwhelming.

YOU make me happy:)

English: A smiley by Pumbaa, drawn using a tex...

(Photo credit: Wikipedia)

So many readers, so many followers! This is really very inspiring. As I started up, the idea was to write for my own healing, take out all that has been there waiting for some language. And to dare to share, things that are complicated, difficult, horrible. All the stuff that I never thought I would be able to share with anyone.

And those other things, the happy things, the good feelings, progress.

I think maybe I have read at least 1000 posts too, and learned so much from all of you!

I love to write, but doing this blog has probably been the hardest thing I have set out to do. After searching in my mind for details and visualizations, I always get so tired, so empty that I hardly know what to do with myself! But then again, every crappy word put in here is a victory, and you are all here cheering on me:)

Thanks. Millions:)