It CAN work out well?

It struck me here one of these mornings. I cycle to work, and I live in a country with lots of weather. Most of it is rain, some is below zero. At 0530 in the morning, I found that the rain had turned to ice. When there are snow, you know it can be dangerous. Ice is a bit more tricky…
Well, it happens, and there has been a few slippery mornings lately.  As my trip to work is 30 kilometers, I cannot just change my mind and take the car, the way cycling home again can easily be quite long. And I have no one to call, my husband takes the plane to another city every Monday morning.

The last morning with icy road, it struck me how easy it is to expect for the worst to happen. Me sliding on the ice ending in a ditch where no one ever finds me. It makes my shoulders raise and level with my ears, all those muscles I need for the ride to go well are as tight as never before. I loose the cool control I need pass the icy bits.

The experience that I should remember, is that I actually have made it, quite a few mornings this year. I’ve never ended in the ditch.

I have not learned to trust my ability to get through the tough spots.

The same goes for the situation at work. I expect that it will be crap, that some of us are going to leave. Even though there are four people hired in after I started, I expect to be made redundant. (Not sure how this affect my muscles, but it does affect my head).

Could those of you who have found the anti negativity button, please tell me where it is? 😉
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Planning for good things to happen

English: Tony Corke climbs to the top of Sempe...

(Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I am really happy today (too), however, a bit scared.

Last night I managed to enter next years cycling event, it is really huge, for a small country. The second largest race in the country. I got the opportunity, and signed on and paid and then I had to breath a bit… Almost 100 kilometres mountain bike race, together with 13000 others.

This year, I had to miss out, because of all the pain in my neck and head. I am still not all that OK, but better. It felt really bad to miss it, but I hadn’t had the opportunity to prepare. To busy at work, to many things to think of, and no time for training.

So this morning I have been thinking of plans again. One of my great readers commented once on another of my planning post: ”Man plans, god laughs”. I admit I am a bit like that, I make plans. Now that Christmas is getting closer, I use a planning tool, to put everything in, so that I don’t forget. It doesn’t always work out as planned… I also like to make plans at a personal level, like I planned to quit heavy bad sleeping pills after last summer. It worked.

So now I wish I can make a plan all the way forward to the bike race in June next year. I need to loose some weight, I need to put workouts into the everyday schedule, I need to increase the amount of kilometers on the bike. I need to take great care of my motivation and dedication, if those two are not fed, they vanish.

I wish I could plan for the winter to stay away too, this morning we had 2 degrees C. But that is probably too much to ask for?

How are you about planning?

So how did the planning go?

Sunday and evaluation time. This week I planned to use my bike to work on Monday, which I did. 60 kilometres in one day, and it felt good. Afterwards anyway. 
I planned to go to spinning class Wednesday morning, did that too, two classes. Felt awful, and missed the quiet nature. 
I never got round to plan any food at all. It is boring when I can’t cook for anyone else but me. I am not good at eating, when I am alone. Usually I grab the easiest meal, and the easiest way out. Which hardly ever is the smartest. So no points for planning food. 
I planned to do some laundry this weekend. Which I haven’t started yet. I also planned to get up early and do some work, both today and yesterday. And I planned to blog every day. Guess last week got so busy, that there was nothing left. 

Next weeks plans: Going away Wednesday-Thursday for work. Two spinning classes on Wednesday morning, 0600-0830. Blog every day. Be nice. Use the bicycle for work, one day. 

Not too ambitious? Maybe planning is just stupid… 

 

Spinning!

My Spinning Bike.

Spinning. (Photo credit: antigavin)

Autumn time, indoor workouts again. This morning I got up at 0515, and attended two classes after one another. It must have been at least six months since last time. I like hard workouts and meeting other people. I even like loud music, if it’s not too loud. But I miss the absolute quiet morning cycling trips, before the sun rises, as the birdswake up. Just me, the narrow road, and nature. If there is a car, I can hear it for a minute before it actually comes.

Now the mornings are dark, and on a regular day, darkness hits as I come home from work. Temperatures vary from around zero to 15 degrees C, and we do have a lot of rain. And wind.

There’s no doubt what kind of excersice I love the most.

Maybe if I just close my eyes and put plugs in my ears, I can imagine my wheels rolling along the seaside, through the woods, and up the mountains… Maybe…

Word for this week: Planning!

English: Pope's Hill, Kielder Forest. A mounta...

Roads are not this bad on my morning trip, luckily. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Feel rather proud this morning. Yesterday when I was planning the week, and checking the weather, I decided that I might cycle to work today. So I found all my warm clothes, my shoes, some woolen socks, and laid it out, all ready. As I woke up at 6 this morning, I was so tired, and so much like, “oh no, this is not going to happen”. I just couldn’t imagine one hour and a half on the bike, before feeling awake at all.

But I did it. It wasn’t the happiest 30 km in my life, but I got to work without having had to walk up one single hill (there are quite a few). The time wasn’t bad either. This afternoon, the forecast says STORM, so it will be a fun trip home…

I know, that if I hadn’t used some time yesterday to find my gear and getting it all ready, I would have gotten into my warm and cosy car instead. The same way that I know, that if I don’t shop before I get hungry, I end up eating things I regret. Because I do have these ideas in my head: Cycling is good for me (but so many times I give up, because it is early in the morning and cold and rain and it is so far). I like to eat healthy (but some days I shop late in afternoon, after work, when I am very hungry). I recent chaos, (but I don’t plan for tidying up, not at work, not at home, however, this doesn’t stress me up, it is just uncomfortable). I need to have my head clear, to be relaxed and focused (but sometimes I get carried away with seemingly uncontrollable emotions).

It is all linked together.  This week I will focus on establishing a warm and close friendship between the planning-part and the dedication-part of me. I hope they will hit it off 🙂

Le tour – and we miss it!

I cycled this last year, Col du Tourmalet, up from the east side, down this hill to Luz St Saveur. Speed record of 78 km/hr. wow…

We’ve missed it this year, first time in seven years we haven’t seen any of the stages. Miss it! We don’t even have TV! Well, we have sunsets and sea, and nature and all kinds of other stuff I woudn’t miss… Wear a helmet when cycling, OK?

And this is BEAUTY!