Well… I did not loose my job. Not in this round anyway. I got hired as the fourth of eight in my department, and the one hired before me, and the one hired as number six lost their jobs last week.
I did not get the job I applied for at my former employee either. So I have applied for a couple others.
There are quite a few things I don’t understand about this, and I see that I am naive, and have had a rather easy career.
I have a few new things to think about. It disturbs my balance, I have lost my sleep. I find that old patterns of thinking and feeling are coming back, and all my strategies for coping sort of escaped out the window.
It is temporary. There are more important things.